My how quickly things change

So after my rant a few weeks back I got the shock of my life and let me tell you that even I am wondering Can we get this done with done with minimal drama please so here's the recap I got my period 5 days after stopping Provera and called the RE clinic as instructed since it came after closing hours. I  waited until 4:300 and finally I called and found that the person in question had left for the day with no instructions what really? I was told that I could call back in the AM umm no I called and left a message already this is important so the receptionist places me on hold and checks my file yes it is written that I be called back and make an appointment for Cycle Day3 umm great that is what 1 day away you have got to be kidding me how do you make such a gross error I have two school aged kids and timing and scheduling are everything to my family to keep us on track at best. It doesn't always work that way but hey I try my hardest to ensure that it does.

I make the appointment go in early that 11:00 am time was not working for me. The Re -Dr. Denker comes in personally conducts the ultrasound and is pleased to with his findings and tells me to start Estrace again make another appointment for Monday May 4th 2015 by then they should have more concrete information about the rest of the cycle and how it will go.

So we wait 24 hours and we find out more

I have the Summer Off

Okay so I thank you for following me and my 4th surrogate journey which is turning out to be a pile of just hurry up and wait fest. I have gone over and debated what to writ only because tis is a surrogacy and words can come back to hurt you and be used against you. I want any potential surrogate to realize that the journey is not all smiles and rainbows and hugs. We are all individuals and we all have our bad days and angry days and pissed off days we are human that said . We have to learn each other's temperaments I will lay the truth bare but as always remain respectful of everyone involved.

So I am a planner that's what I do, and the info I got at my last screening was rushed half there nothing concrete and full of take this take that and call when you get your period? What? wait What? But I have another question oh okay and ushered out of the office. WHAT THE HELL  Talk to me this is my body and time I just want to know what we are doing? dang

Okay I fill my script for Provera and Estrace and now I am waiting for a very heavy AF (aunt flow) to hit me hard. I texted IF #1 and his response was a bit stinging I won't repost it but I showed it to DH and he suggested that I leave them alone for a bit give them some space. In essence I was told the information that I am asking and it will be 2-3 months although the Doctor told me 1 1/2 months oookaay

So fellow followers I am off for the summer I will be back when I don't know but tahtnks for reading feel free to contact me if you are anew surrogate and have questions I have lots of expierence

Another Cancelled Transfer

Hello, again fellow followers I had my monitoring appointment yesterday and got another bomb dropped on me our egg donor had to cancel this cycle and it seems that she won't be ready for another 2-3 months uggh Are you kidding me? How many more freaking delays and setbacks are we going to have?  wait I take that back before the universe finds something else to throw at us. I am disappointed but realize that every thing happens for a reason and that not everything is under my control.

Oh and top it all off my Program Coordinator left and I have a new one wait again really? sighs also not under my control, I will miss Nicole and we plan to stay in touch through out my journey. So my new coordinator is Meagan and she is just as nice and warm and also a two-time surrogate, so she can relate to the injections the slow crawl and the start and stop of a surrogacy journey.

I still wanted to share my pics of Mr. wand seeing as how I had already snapped these before getting news of the cancellation.

So what's on the horizon now that we are on hold, I have to continue with estrace in the form of patches and Provera in the form of pills for 10 days until I get a very heavy period and then I will probably start BCP's to prevent an oops pregnancy even though hubby won't touch without a box of condoms on hand. I get my tooth fixed, lose the weight gain from the meds plan my kids summer holiday routine and by then I will be ready to cycle again and everything will fall in line.

So next check in will be when I head back to the RE's office on day 2-3 of my cycle for baseline ultrasound and blood draw

Grow lining grow

So I had a double appointment this week and got some god news and not so good news my lining is thick and fluffy but my triple stripe is taking a little longer to develop hmmph issues issues, issues, like really so I have to pull out the big guns and add some Pomegranate Juice to my regimen and see if it will grow. My lining is measuring 11.4 which is good. My dosage of estradiol is quadruple strength so that may be why they didn't up the dosage they did ask me to bring my estradiol with me and gave me my shot in the office maybe switching it from the evening to the morning will help more. I will be doing the same thing on Monday morning (April 13th).

I also have a new coordinator, her name is Megan I will miss Nicole we have been through so much together but she did promise to come to visit when it is time for me to deliver, funny how we already have that date pencilled in soo next post will be next week and here's to praying for development and a successful transfer

Moving Along...

So, we have had much progress I have been on Lupron now for about a week and have a few appointments back to back. let me say that I am experiencing some new symptoms on Lupron this time around (30cc's) increased appetite, a stronger feminine body odor only when I urinate though I have taken to increasing my water intake just to help some way and besides water is good for you I can't wait to discuss this with the RE. I hope that this isn't TMI but I felt the need to be open and honest in the hopes that one day a new surrogate will come across this and see that the side effects go way past the headaches, hot flashes and mood swings.

So Transfer Date is April 210th and we are moving towards it after all its April 1st next post to foloow

New egg donor

Hello Fairybumpmother followers, I have exciting news my IF's have found HER!!! Their new egg donor and we are on the move. I found out Sunday evening when I had a chat with my IF's via text and got a lovely surprise call from the Fertility Clinic Monday morning I am to start meds again on Friday March 20th 2015t hey will also do a trans vaginal ultrasound and I am sure some blood work will be in there as well. My dosage of Estrogen will be lowered to gradually build my lining and I am guessing for now that we will transfer in May.

I am sooo excited and pleased. The only thing to bum me out is the constant delays with the escrow company damn them for not being in Florida. Due to the ice storm or somebody's ineffectiveness to get things done in a timely matter, its March 11th and I still haven't received my insurance premimum/monthly allowance bummer I am trying to keep calm and not lose it but the agent is not really helping much oh well can't wait for this weather to break

Transfer Cancelled

Hello to me followers and those who pop in from time to time so our transfer was cancelled on Thursday the embryos didn't survive the testing so my instructions are to quit all meds shed my lining and start over again. We also have to find a new egg donor as the current now former one will not be used again. Hold up before I go any further let me start over as there is a crisis that is missing from my illustrious tale.

Wednesday night 8:36pm- I get an urgent call and text message from my coordinator Nicole to call the agency owner asap, my mind is racing and I can't think of what has gone possibly wrong to warrant such urgency. I do as asked, and am bummed to find out that after all the drama with purchasing a health insurance plan in time for the February 15th 2015 deadline, missing insurance card and two payments later, our policy may have a surrogacy exclusion WTF really when transfer is hours away and the transfer could possibly be delayed really no way so after 4 hours of back and forth communications between myself, coordinator, insurance agent we come to the conclusion that there is nothing that can be done after hours we just have to wait until the morning and deal with it then.

Thursday Febraury 26th 2015 8:00am- So I go with the game plan as asked and get to the clinic at 8:00 am to say that I am not stressed at this point doesn't do it justice. I speak with the ladies at the reception area and before I forget my cell and mobile charger are now dead, I also have a message waiting for me that my husband called and I am like OMG WTF else can go wrong? credit card issues ,really just pile more shit on this hectic day.

I start to hyperventilate and was encouraged to take one of the valium prescribed for the transfer to get me calm down a make a joke about it we all nervously laugh.

At the end If's were there we hugged and supported each other. there was nothing we could but scratch this cycle and start over. Praying for a new egg donor and success after my monster period comes then it will be back to the injections hormones and sore tushie